I have never done this before :( don't know what to say... I need financial help :-[

Single 32-year-old male. Struggling with major mental helth disorders that have been worsening since 2017. Since that time, I had to wait 12+ months to get in with regular psychiatrist and therapist.

In 2018, the desperate need arose for me to take in my 2-3year old nephew at the time. I was blessed to be helped in getting my home, where my nephew lived and grew with me up until this year. I desperately needed the ability to apply for any jobs, not only based on school schedule + never knowing when school would shut down etc. etc.

Throughout all this, to date, I have been struggling terribly to stay, not only afloat but 'conscious' you could also say.

It's now Christmas eve.... and had to be left out in what little family gathering we had as I have yet to be able to catch up including registering and gassing up my car.

I am working as often as I can from home at the moment. My cell got shut off, home internet I have til the 28th (even w hardship), water bill, electric bill, necessities.... I'm having an anxiety attack as I type this out. There is no way I can include every situation, here. 

I can tell you, there is a vast abyss beyond rock bottom and I have been there for many years. However, I thought there was hope... before this covid crap.

So much has happened, and I am so damn exhausted, Even WITH medications, I don't know what to say. So, if you want to know more, please don't hesitate to prod further. Especially if you would be genuinely interested in doating.

Never have I thought I'd be the one asking/begging for help (of any sort) but this year has been an eye opener for many things.

$5 or $0.50 even... Anything at this rate would be of momentous help. I can't describe how choked up I am right now.

*and I would like to note... The propaganda on all 'these businesses' seeking employees is complete and utter BS! Never has it taken me this long to secure stable job placement.

Thank you all, even just for reading or sharing this!

Happy Holidays! 

-Ben

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